(Un)Pretty Woman!

Got my snaps today.... And they are GOOD. I mean that at least I look better in those snaps then in reality :-)
My friend commented that they were real nice, but she didn't like her own snaps.. ha ha. Its a general observation, people hardly ever like their own photographs. I guess they always think that they look better than 'that' snap and are never content with the result. But not with me, I am happy with my snaps....
I have accepted reality, the truth. I have accepted the fact that I am 'ugly'. I know I don't have a pretty face nor do I have a great body, but I am fine with it. The only things I was/am concerned about are pimples on my face and my increasing weight. Two-three months back, I had worst outburst of pimples. I have been having this problem since long and I have spent tens of thousands of rupees on treatment. In recent past, I was consulting the best dermatologist in Mumbai, but alas! It was getting worse and I decided to stop the treatment. Right now, I am just keeping my skin clean and taking couple of ayurvedic medicines, which my best buddy’s' mom gave me, and the results are very good. Pimples have reduced, nearly gone!!!! He he he..... I really wanna work on 'weight' issue too, wanna join a Gym, but got no time. But I do whatever I can by giving some kind of exercise to body...
I have accepted the way I look, but others haven't. Couple of weeks back, my oldest aunt had called me and suggested me in most loving tone that I need to change and improve my personality. She suggested that I grow my hair, wear bright colour clothes, wear tight clothes, tone my body, work on my pimples etc etc. She said that first impression is last impression and so I need to work on my looks, so that I am able to impress other people and GUYS! She added that she knows about my 'love story'(???) and can understand how bad I might be feeling. This last statement made me feel bad and angry. WTF, just because one guy refused to marry me, people are coming and suggesting me ways to improve my looks. The other day my cousin suggested that I should do something about 'the line on my nose', maybe surgery or something. I outrageously denied her suggestion. I know these people are concerned about me and about my marriage, but I can't go on changing everything in me. Tomorrow, someone might tell me that my nose it too big and I need plastic surgery!! It can go on and on.... No one is perfect and nor am I. Why can't others just accept this fact?? Even two months back, because of the 'break-off' and my pimple face, dad was worried about my marriage. I know, even now he is and whatever I am doing right now, getting my snap taken, registering for bureaus, is to make him feel better!
I know I might not be the best, but I am good. I work 10 hours a day, earn good, cook, look after my house. If not better, I am no way less than any guy out there, then why should I be so unsecured about my marriage issue. I am not.....
If a guy wants gurl with pretty looks and great body, he can marry Aishwaryas' and Mallikas', not me! Sorry Sir, you are not the right guy for me. You need to accept me, the way I am, along with my past and respect me......
Uff, its getting late, I better have few winks now!!!
I love myself......... :-)
Listening to Song : Jine ke Ishare from Phir Milenge!